Week 3

This week has been sanctifying, that's pretty much all I can say haha. I know, and it's only week 3! Deadlines left and right! However the Lord has been gracious to me, He's blessed me with a wonderful lab partner who can adjust the work that we need to do around my deadlines and such. I've been behind on my readings for my classes because I got my textbooks late.. and also my no class Tuesdays and Thursdays are my study days but these past 2 weeks, I had to meet with my lab partner to work on this poster that we have to make, and were only given a 2 weeks head notice about it. So we've been working on that, and it's not for a class. Gladly, we pretty much finished today and printing day is Thursday so we even finished early! Yeah anyways, I have to plan a new study schedule since my study/lab/rec center Fridays can't go into full affect due to certain circumstances; however I understand there is a need somewhere else. I've also been given the opportunity to serve the church in plenty of different ways and it's been wonderful. Plenty of sacrifices going around, and also exercising that selflessness for a lot of us; and I know it's all not possible by ourselves because of our selfish sinful flesh, but because of the Holy Spirit who works in us. That αγαπη love going around, with God who showed us how.

Self reminder

"We must hate sin, and not just that which troubles us. Love for Christ, because He went to the cross, and hate for sin because that sent Him there, is the solid foundation for true spiritual mortification. To seek mortification only because a sin troubles us proceeds from self-love. "

- John Owen, The Mortification of Sin

Had to reopen a book I finished to remind myself the seriousness of sin.  A little visit to the book of Romans seems like something to do as well.

Happy August!

Referring to my last post, it totally was the 3rd scenario... haha. with a twist.

The radiance of the Father
Before the dawn of time
You spoke and all creation came to be
The molecules and planets
Reveal Your great design
And every one was made so we could see
So we could see

You are the glorious Christ
The greatest of all delights
Your power is unequaled
Your love beyond all heights
No greater sacrifice
Than when You laid down Your life
We join the song of angels
Who praise You day and night
Glorious Christ 

Truth.

PS. Olympics, olympics, olympics!

Beef Skillet.

Wow, so much has happened lately, I would not have an idea where to start; however this isn't one of those update blogs sorry ha. It's one of those, I just have a need to say random things kind of blogs, I guess..

The Lord has truly blessed me with so much free time, especially these past 2 weeks or so. Since I haven't been in the lab that much since July 11, due to my lab partner having been in jury duty and that we finished our second reaction. Since my lab partner and I are 50/50 partners (bonus points for those who get that reference) there's not much I can do without her. I went to the lab this past Monday, and found out that whatever we tested wasn't the product we were expected which either means three things:

1. The synthesis did not work out, and that that the coupling did not occur. Basically meaning that there was no reaction, or there was one, but the product wasn't what we wanted.
2. The synthesis did work, and that the coupling did occur; but we collected and tested the wrong layer after doing the extraction. Good thing, we saved both layers! Just means we have to separate the product again.
3. The synthesis and coupling worked, and I just do not know how to analyze an NMR spectrum haha. I'm pretty sure it isn't this one, because that spectrum showed a simple molecule, and the molecule we're trying to synthesize has a pretty complex structure. Things would just be easier if this was what happened though.

Ooops, super off tangent... Anyways, since I haven't been spending much time in the lab, I've been chillin' here and there. Though I've realized this a few weeks ago, I was able to see it more... I was able to see how sinful I am, and it's convicting every single time. Ugh, it's disgusting to think about how selfish I am, and how far away I am from being like Christ. I'm glad that I'm using a good portion of this free time that I've been blessed with to read read read His inspired Word as well as Christ-centered books, to deepen my knowledge of Him through His Word and through books that enhance my understanding of Scripture. I mean reading is good, but what good is it if a person is not doing anything with what they just read? (James 1:22-25) From living it out, to sharing it, aren't easy things to do but I'm so grateful for having brothers and sisters around to help ease out the task. Accountability, praise the Lord for the fellowship of the saints.

Another thing, I've realized is how much work my social skills needs hahaha. Meeting new people, and it's pretty hard to share the Gospel with someone especially if it's already difficult to just have a simple conversation with the person. Oh and with people I know real well, I realized how scared I am to share the Gospel... It gets me every time; I come home from hanging out with unbelievers, and just see how much of a failure I am at evangelizing -__-" Not because people don't accept, that's totally not a fail it's not a believers job to convert a person, it's our job to share the Gospel. and that's where I fail at, I'm too timid to even bring up the issue of God in a conversation. Why would I not want to share with the world about Christ who came on this earth to save sinners, who we all are! (1 Timothy 1:15)

Once again, I don't know where I am going with this; so I'll just end this now... I think the KBBQ from earlier has digested in my stomach or whatever so I can sleep now. Goodnight!

Cancelled

Lab partner moment
After eating breakfast, dresssing up, making my lunch, and practically about to leave the house to go to lab, me and my lab partner get cancelled to come in today haha. So I ended up listening to a sermon that I planned on listening to during my drive to school and walk from where I park. Then feeling encouraged by the sermon I immediately read 4 chapters of the book that I'm going through (with a nap in between). And started to iron clothes and watch Breaking Bad. I'm going really slow with this show for some unknown reason. All these Breaking Bad episodes are making me want to go to the laboratory and work on mine and my lab partner's experiment! Not being in the lab for over a week, I must admit feels odd.

I also happened to come across several things in my mind today. I struggle with so much sin, it's crazy. Just wanted to ask for prayers cause it's needed haha. TRUTH.

The most sinful sinner,
Angelica

Music, Reading, Washing, Talking, Mercy.

After having this window on for a good five minutes or so, I finally found something to start this off and that was it...  Hmmm, due to the fact that I always blog late at night or really early in the morning, every time I write about my day, it's technically "yesterday"... Well "yesterday" I played the piano a lot, played my violin, did some reading, oh and got to wash my car! Since the tree where I normally park my car under is sapping at the moment with the combination of the strong winds we've been having along with the dirt from my front yard, my car looked like it went on an off road drive in the desert or something; and it wasn't that long ago that I washed my car last, I think it was only 3 weeks ago... whatever..

So since I've been playing the piano often lately, my parents (especially my mom) have been getting mad at me because the piano is located in the living room and my parents are ALWAYS watching tv in the living room. And so me and my mom got into a disagreement on the purpose of having a piano. I ended up borrowing my cousin Harvey's keyboard, now I can play in my room so my parents can watch tv in peace, I guess...

After loading the keyboard in my car, I had a good talk with my cousin ahaha. Got to catch up, even though we hung out Wednesday. It's always cool to see how the Lord is working in a brother in-Christ's life. I'm not saying that our conversation was good because Harvey shared things about his friends or whatnot, but it was good because our conversation was very Christ-centered. It is such a blessing to be able to talk to someone about how much we want to share the Gospel with a friend or how much our disciplines have changed! Like a couple of days ago, I got to talk to some of the few ladies at my church and we were able to share struggles and encourage one another, ahh I love it! Praise God for fellowship!

In the midst of my conversation with Harvey, I reminded myself about showing mercy to others (since we were talking about sharing the Gospel with other people). After listening to a sermon by CJ Mahaney two days ago, The Holy Spirit totally convicted me, when I heard Mahaney say, "Those who have received mercy should be quite eager to have mercy on someone who doubts." and I totally need to do a way better job in showing mercy to others. Seeing how sinful I am, and knowing the consequences for my sin, it's crazy knowing where I deserve to be... But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ--by grace you have been saved. (Ephesians 2:4-5) How can I not be able to show mercy to someone else, especially with the mercy God has shown me! Gahhh, cmon Ica! It is super frustrating to deal with my sinful self, but that's how I can find comfort in God, to know that I have a holy and blameless Lord who saved me from the punishment for my sin!

Sorry, no structure whatsoever to this... like that's new. Okay, goodnight!

Sunburnt

From my sister's graduation., then sunburnt again from today's yard sale. It's a good thing I really LIKE the smell of of sunblock (:I think by the end of this holiday weekend I'm going to have a sunglasses tan on my face especially after Memorial Day at the park this upcoming Monday. I am truly grateful that it's summer and for all the free time I have; I just pray that I may use this time wisely and do things that are pleasing to God.

Also I am truly thankful that I passed all my classes this semester! Wooo praise the Lord! 3 MORE SEMESTERS, 3 MORE SEMESTERS! (Lord willing) Then I can lock myself in a 20° C laboratory and have some real fun with my personal timeline that I made for myself for the decade or so that Mimi knows about... (I know you'll read this eventually) and we all know how accurate those always are... hahaha. Still excited for the future nonetheless!

I'd like to write more, but I can't do everything I wanted to do tonight. I also wanted to do some late night thinking to myself before I fall asleep, but my eye-bags are filled with exhaustion and just want to call it a day/night. Super tired from today, goodnight!